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Post by Sweetheart Snow on Apr 2, 2011 19:43:14 GMT -5
Sweetheart smiled at Jewel. Then, her smile turned into a doubtful frown when Jewel said that they might be able to find her a guy.
"I highly doubt that any guy would find me attractive. Besides, most guys only go for the girls who dress like they WANT people to notice them, if you get what I mean. Plus, guys don't like shy little girls like me. No one did back home, so why would any boy here like me?" Sweetheart said in a voice that held more doubt than her face showed.
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Post by jewelkent on Apr 2, 2011 19:52:08 GMT -5
Jewel sighed, and suddenly wanted to throw herself on the couch head first and die. This girl was cute, but she had some kind of self-esteem problem it seemed. Jewel had to say something to convince her that things were gonna get better.
"Sweetie bird...Can I tell you something?...You're not in St. Louis anymore. Things are a lot different here in New York. First off, about the guys...you have to just talk to a guy. Let him know you're interested...if he reciprocates, then you're good. Boys do tend to like the girls who dress a little more...revealing. But you don't have to do that. Like Mush for example, he looks like your type of guy. But...like I said...it all remains to be seen." She explained.
Jewel then looked at Sweetheart with just a hint of confusion "Little girl? What kind of talk is that? You're only a year younger than me...there are so many guys who would love a nice girl like you." She explained.
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Post by Sweetheart Snow on Apr 2, 2011 20:19:54 GMT -5
Sweetheart suddenly felt annoyed. She knew that Jewel was just trying to help her feel more confident with herself, but what she went through back in St. Louis was making it extremely complicated for Sweetheart to get the confidence that she has NEVER possessed in her life.
"Well, talking to a boy: that's a huge part of the problem. You're the first person that I have ever had a conversation with, unless if you count me begging my father to stop beating me every night. Back home, if a boy saw me LOOKING at them, they would turn tail and run away from me, no matter how old they were. Heck, even the policemen turn tail and run if they see me looking in their general direction, even if I wasn't even paying attention to them. I have absolutely no experience around the male population. Let's say that Mush noticed me looking at him. Even though he doesn't know a SINGLE thing about me, I am certain as the sun rising in the East that he would taking off running like the Devil himself was after him. I was an outcast back home, so why would the boys and men of New York treat me any differently?" Sweetheart rambled. She meant it to be in a serious tone, but her words came out in a broken and quiet tone instead. Even though she was accepted by Jewel, she was frightened that no one else would accept her.
Not to mention that I have more issues than I have scars, bruises, and cuts; which is saying A LOT! Sweetheart thought.
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Post by jewelkent on Apr 3, 2011 13:18:15 GMT -5
Jewel heaved in a heavy sigh. She was suddenly felt helpless. But she was always taught to act quick. So she blew a stray piece of hair out of her face, and smiled at Sweetheart.
"Girl...that has got to be the craziest thing I have ever heard. Most guys...not -all-, but some guys will not turn tail and run from a girl like you. You don't wanna be like every other girl, who got their guys by showin' off, do ya? That would be awful. You want to hold your head up high, and go right up to a guy, introduce yourself...and just see what happens. See, my problem is.. I tend to come on a bit strong to some guys. The last 3 I came in contact were all real handsome, and I couldn't resist. But don't do that...some guys don't like girls who come on strong to them." She explained.
Jewel patted Sweetheart's knee quickly "Hey...don't you worry about nothin', Sweetie bird. If you see any guy around...one that you like the look of...then just go up, talk to him and see what his reaction." She said.
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Post by Sweetheart Snow on Apr 3, 2011 13:21:49 GMT -5
Sweetheart looked up at Jewel and smiled.
"Well, do you think that the best way to start is to stop thinking about my past experiences and just take a chance at these kind of things?" She asked. It was the best solution that she could think of at the moment. Then, she looked up at Jewel in hesitation. "And i was wondering. Would you maybe help me out if I need help?" she asked, half-doubtful and half-hopeful.
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Post by jewelkent on Apr 3, 2011 13:55:46 GMT -5
Jewel nodded at Sweetheart's first question. She was sure that this was the best way for her to get over her fears.
"Oh trust me, Sweetie bird. All you need to do is push all those bad memories into the furthest parts of your mind, and seize the day. Don't let anything or anyone get in your way. I'll be right behind you if you need anything though." She said.
Then she thought for a moment about Sweetheart's request to help her out if she needed it. *Hmmm...help this girl who I barely know?... Why not? she thought to herself.
"Sure thing, Sweetie bird. If you ever need anything...any kind of help at all. I will be right behind you all the way through. Trust me...some people who have met me may not agree with this... But you're in good hands with me." She said with a wide smile.
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Post by Sweetheart Snow on Apr 3, 2011 14:01:35 GMT -5
Sweetheart smiled at Jewel. She was happy that she would help her. Then, Jewel say a phrase that caught Sweetheart's attention.
"Seize the Day?" she repeated. "What does that mean?"
Sweetheart liked the sound of it, but she was curious as to what Seize the Day meant.
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Post by jewelkent on Apr 3, 2011 14:20:45 GMT -5
Jewel blew out a frustrated breath as she thought long and hard about how to answer Sweetheart's question. Oh how would she explain this to her.
"Seize the day... Ummm... Seize the day just pretty much means to take any chance you can get, and do whatever you want, cause you can be alive and breathin' one day, and dead and buried the next. Look at me, I lived my life in High Society for the first 10 years of my life. After learning of my parents death...and having my sister leave me... I took every advantage I can get my hands on. I traveled, lived with a bunch of guys in Philadelphia for 3 years. Then one day...I left there to look for my sister here in New York. But I hadn't had any luck in 5 years. I was just ready to give up...then I was told to never quit." She said.
"So, that's what Seizing the day means. Just to do whatever you want before your time is up. All of the near-death experiences I have had in my life have taught me that doing nothing is not an option." She said.
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Post by Sweetheart Snow on Apr 3, 2011 15:00:18 GMT -5
Sweetheart suddenly remembered the only memory she has of her mother while she was still alive.
She was three years old and Amy Snow was telling her an old Spanish quote that Amy's father - Sweetheart's grandfather - told her every single day.
"That reminds me of something that my grandfather always told my mother. It was an old Spanish saying that has been passed down from my mother's side of the family ever since the 1400s in Spain." She said, sounding like her mind was actually in Spain during the 1400s. "Usted nunca puede volver a vivir un momento en esta vida. El único modo de vivir su vida al más lleno es viviendo cada solo segundo como su último y amando la vida. It means You can never relive a moment in this lifetime. The only way to live your life to the fullest is by living every single second like your last and by loving life." Sweetheart continued. Then, she stopped. She looked like she was trying not to start crying again. "The memory of my mother telling me that is the only good memory from my life in Missouri."
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Post by jewelkent on Apr 3, 2011 16:15:02 GMT -5
Jewel sat and listened closely to Sweetheart's story. She nodded and smiled to herself. Sweetheart's story was one of severe truth.
"You're grandfather was a very wise man, Sweetie Bird. My father Patrick was quite a wise man himself, and he taught my sister and I pretty much the same thing, except that he also said that if you don't live life to the fullest...you could die never knowing the truth about yourself. I wish my parents would've learned that lesson before they died." She told her.
Jewel then sighed heavily as she watched Sweetheart's eyes well up with tears. This worried Jewel a lot. She then hugged the girl to her, and stroked her hair.
"Oh Sweetie bird...it's okay girl. Hey...remember what I said just before about holding your head up high. That statement does not just mean talking to guys. It's also some very good advice about approaching life itself." She whispered to the sobbing girl in her arms.
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Post by Sweetheart Snow on Apr 3, 2011 17:26:43 GMT -5
Sweetheart smiled.
"Thanks, Jewely." Then, Sweetheart yawned. She was about to pass out and she was pretty sure that she looked dead on her feet. "Is there any place where I can sleep, Jewely? maybe, an extra bunk or something? I really need to sleep." she mumbled sleepily before yawning again.
Note to self: don't hop onto an ancient-looking freight train no matter where you're going. she thought.
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Post by jewelkent on Apr 3, 2011 23:49:01 GMT -5
Jewel sighed heavily, and eyed Sweetheart. The poor girl started to look like she might soon collapse.
"Oh look at you, Sweetie Bird. You look exhausted, honey. I'm sure there is a free bunk upstairs somewhere. I think the bottom bunk below mine is free. If you decide to take it. It's the 3rd one on the left. The top half is mine. You can have the bottom half. Go upstairs and go to sleep now, baby." She said.
Jewel felt extremely sorry for Sweetheart. She had been through so much, but now that she had a place to stay...she hoped that things would change for her.
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Post by Sweetheart Snow on Apr 4, 2011 15:21:51 GMT -5
Sweetheart smiled sleepily at Jewel. Jewel was certainly a gift from God Himself.
"Thanks, Jewely." Sweetheart yawned again. "Thanks for everything." Then, she walked up into the bunk room to get some much needed sleep.
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